Musings on a winter day:

So after I was gone from the face of the planet for about two months, I thought I should show my big, bright smile around here again. Since my last post I entered the new year, I passed all my exams, I read a few books, dreamed about white skin and cold hands, started the second semester of my second year, laughed, cried, got pissed off and on the same note I went through all the human emotions.

Right now I am sitting in my dorm room, perched up on my upstairs bed, looking at my room mate as she is warming up a cup of tea. I am a little bored right now, wasting time doing absolutely nothing, looking around myself and realising that life is more or less a complete waste of time.

I just feel everything passing by me, nothing is different, nothing is happening, while I just sit here. I have this mental image of a figure standing completely still, while the whole world is moving all around it, at an alert pace. Maybe in a way it is important to just take a break from all the things around you and analyse, think, perceive the world as it really is, while everything around you is in a blur of speed and agitation.

In all honesty, I like this rhythm of my life, at a slow controlled pace, taking it all in. This is me in a weird way of looking at things, but I don’t mind. While with a goal set I am fast and driven, alert and just a little hectic, without one, everything around me just seems to slow down, from my heartbeat to my breathing, to the people passing me by on the street, to the water running in the sink.

Tick tack, tick tack...

[photo: gorjuss Art - Suzanne Woolcott, 'Driftwood' ]