Escape

I want to be swept up in a dream, because reality seems to be crashing around me in layers. I feel the acute need to breath, to inhale new air, fresh and crisp, with a hint of uncertainty. I want to feel something different more than anything, to experience, to live, to know new things and new places, not from books, but rather by touching with my own feet the concrete, the steps and the stones, to feel it with all my senses. I want to smile with my whole body, to forget about my worries, about my reality, and just feel alive and awake.

I want to drink coffee in small coffee shops, and walk on small and narrow cobblestone streets, to sit on a bench and read a book, feel all the new smells and sounds around me, to take long bike rides around the new city, to explore and get lost without having a care in the world.

And I want you to be there with me, to share it with me, and be my rock and my safe place.

Idle thinking

I wish for someone...

For someone that understands me, that does not need a million words as an explanation for my every move and every thought. I wish for someone that does not bore me, that knows when to talk and when to stay silent, when to give me space and when to hold me as tight as possible.

For someone that does not need to fill every second with unnecessary words, that can love me just the way I am, while motivating me to be a better person. A person that can complete my sentences, and knows what I think and how, without asking; someone that can surprise me still with his unpredictable ways, but could never hurt me intentionally.

For someone that is not a coward, comfortable in his state of being, or content.

A person that will want to spend time with me, that knows and accepts that I am an intelligent and independent person, while he does not feel intimidated but proud that I can stand on my own two feet - that I can be alone, but I choose to be with him because I love him.

I don't want a perfect person, because it does not exist, but a perfect person for me, that has his flaws, flaws that endear him to me even more, because they reassure me that he is human, just like me. For someone that accepts my shortcomings and does not criticize aspects that I could never change.

For someone to love me truly, just the way I am, and not just because he cannot change me, but because I am enough, with my qualities and my flaws and my oddities.

I wish for someone...