‘I’m sorry! I’m sorry!’
It’s like a mantra on your lips that is just starting to be enough, even for me. It’s out there, you said it and there is no going back, no second chance.
How do you think great loves end? Is it big, messy, public and humiliating, or just like a flame that at one point died down, ceasing to exist?
I think it depends on the two people that were once in love and the way they were. It’s suffocating; it chokes you, that feeling that you have lost something so important, so beautiful, it is simply overwhelming. It’s like for one second your mind stopped, just because it could not comprehend the pain, the loss, the other half that isn’t there anymore.
Did I ever tell you how it happened with them? That one day he realized that he simply didn’t love her anymore. Do you know how that feels, how it eats you up from the inside? How it ruined her for the rest of the days that were to come? That from that point onward and every other relationship would be defined by him; that glimpses are painful, and smiles tear you up inside?
Do you know how it feels to live everyday with the fear that the person you love will just wake up one day and realize that he stopped being the person that loved you back?
Cowards should not exist, at least not in love, because their actions are pitiful. They denigrate everything that was important; they ruin every single memory that was beautiful, just so they don’t have to say they’re sorry, sorry they stopped loving you. And they make you doubt every touch, and every kiss and every thought. They make you question your feelings and yourself, when in reality, love simply rotted away, because some are just incapable of such emotions.
So, when the time comes, I want to be the one that wakes up one morning and realizes that my heart does not belong to you anymore.
Because, otherwise, I am afraid that you will be a coward.
And you see, cowards should not exist, at least not in love…
It’s like a mantra on your lips that is just starting to be enough, even for me. It’s out there, you said it and there is no going back, no second chance.
How do you think great loves end? Is it big, messy, public and humiliating, or just like a flame that at one point died down, ceasing to exist?
I think it depends on the two people that were once in love and the way they were. It’s suffocating; it chokes you, that feeling that you have lost something so important, so beautiful, it is simply overwhelming. It’s like for one second your mind stopped, just because it could not comprehend the pain, the loss, the other half that isn’t there anymore.
Did I ever tell you how it happened with them? That one day he realized that he simply didn’t love her anymore. Do you know how that feels, how it eats you up from the inside? How it ruined her for the rest of the days that were to come? That from that point onward and every other relationship would be defined by him; that glimpses are painful, and smiles tear you up inside?
Do you know how it feels to live everyday with the fear that the person you love will just wake up one day and realize that he stopped being the person that loved you back?
Cowards should not exist, at least not in love, because their actions are pitiful. They denigrate everything that was important; they ruin every single memory that was beautiful, just so they don’t have to say they’re sorry, sorry they stopped loving you. And they make you doubt every touch, and every kiss and every thought. They make you question your feelings and yourself, when in reality, love simply rotted away, because some are just incapable of such emotions.
So, when the time comes, I want to be the one that wakes up one morning and realizes that my heart does not belong to you anymore.
Because, otherwise, I am afraid that you will be a coward.
And you see, cowards should not exist, at least not in love…
